“As for me, I am tormented with an everlasting itch for things remote." - Melville
John "lakewood" Fegyveresi
Monday, January 22, 2007
I like winter...really I do. In fact, I like all seasons. I spent my lunch break at work today thinking a lot about last year....not about bad things, actually quite the opposite. I thought about how much fun I had last summer with my hiking, playing live out at the bars, prepping for grad school apps, taking classes, and seeing family and friends. Normally I don't get in "ruts"...but today I really thought back to all those good memories and realized how apathetic I feel right now...particularly today. I don't know why. I just feel really unmotivated with little if any desire to "get out there" and "do things". I just don't feel like doing much of anything. My shows have been cancelled, Its too cold to hike, I don't know whats going on with grad school, and I'm only taking one easy class. (among other things)
Then sure enough...I end up on cnn.com, or fox news or something and I read that today, Jan 22nd, is actually the most "depressing day of the year". It's actually called blue monday. Some professor in the UK determined some formula based on all these factors and determined that today, of all days, is when I should feel the crappiest.
Does this explain this? Or is it just a my way of rationalizing it? Heck, maybe its just a coincidence.